What is friends? what is the true meaning of friends?
i had no clue.
i start to doubt myself when i trust someone
i thought i could handle friendship
NOW
i know im so damn wrong
just so u know
friends during nursery till secondary is TRUE FRIENDS
NOW?
its seems to gone back to what we primary school friends used to say
【我跟你假假好】
i felt...left out
not that i dun wanna join
its just,,,,not that convenience for me. Im not like you all
having own transport, own savings
I DUN HAVE ANY
i have to think about my transport, money management
i dun wan to go swimming not because i dun wanna join.
its because im embarrass of my back :\
i knew some of u will say its okay to show. we dun mind. its not a big deal.
yeah I KNOW!
but the problems lies with me!
i just can't stick my head right up walking confidently! i just can't.
asking me goin out shopping
i loved to!
i love shopping!
but i can't spend something which i dun think its worthy
the money you spent everyday its not ur own.
even though u earned ur own money.. its just not right to spend like that.
friends are suppose to be around together all the time when i need u.
where were u when i have no one to talk to.
all the sudden
u left me just like u just squash an ant with ur finger tips
am i that not worthy to you?
u talked to me only when u can get benefits from me
u talked to me only when u can get some information from me
NOW?
im useless to you
why do u nid to make it so obvious.
its really hurts.